You are my ray of sunshine

Life is weird and most of the time I am not really sure about what I want from life. Life is never something I wanted to define ..all I wanted to do was live the moment.

But then you happened to me like a rainbow that colored the sky. Its like all my life I have been waiting for this moment to come. This tiny hope to lighted up my world. Nothing else matters anymore.. And all I do now is wait and hope..its never the moment that matters to me now, but the beauty of what is to come to my life.

Yes you my love, is the light that spread in to my life in the darkest moment. I haven’t seen you yet, but your thought is what completes me now!

Some people come into our lives and changes it completely. Some just pass by and gives us the wisdom of a life time. Some people leave their foot prints in our hearts. You haven’t yet been born but you have become part of me.

You are my ray of sunshine..

What doesn't kill you?

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger?

I grew up believing in fairies, the fact that if something wouldn’t kill me it will just turn me into wonder woman. I grew up searching for the shooting star and wishing upon it every time I had a glimpse of it. I grew up thinking that if I was patient and tried hard, life would open doors for me that would be the answers to my dreams. And here I am today..wondering, thinking, struggling and exhausted!!

Through all these years of holding on to myself, life has taught me that there is no happily ever after..its a continuous struggle to be happy..a continuous search of war between what you want and what you are “expected” to do. And in the struggle of making others happy and keeping yourself happy, you just stop seeking for that happily ever after. Your life ends up being a compromise and you forget about what you wished for, when you glanced at that shooting star and held your breath. All your life becomes is what was expected out of you..your dreams are someone else…Happiness is a compromise isn’t it?

What doesn’t kill you only ends up breaking you. What doesn’t kill you ends up stealing that so called happiness you have searched for. What doesn’t kill you stops you from seeking yourself, building your dreams, living your life..in the end, what doesn’t kill you just takes away everything that you had once thought was only yours!
People around me look at me and ask me “what else do you want?” for all those ones, you don’t live my life..you don’t see my struggle …

You only see the shell that I wear and the smile that hides my pain. You only see me the way I want you to see me!

What doesn’t kill you…just breaks you!!